Taking a Leap:  Getting there

I spent the last 9 years as a director of music ministries at a church in Southern California.  We had about 400 worshiping each Sunday with 4 music teams that rotated Sundays.  The cool thing was that the congregation had been fully trained in worshiping freely.  They were fully versed in how God reveals Himself and we all respond to Him through surrendered worship.  Everyone knew and expected the Holy Spirit to show-up at worship and in their lives.  Everyone knew that God is active and powerful today and that we should be praying boldly with expectation.  Together we all knew that God’s power is available to us the same as it was to the disciples who brought people back to life and healed the sick of their impossible to cure diseases.  We knew that church was more than a check box on our list of things to do each week and that following Jesus was a way of life to be lived out with friends, family and co-workers.  The music team I led was rooted and connected as friends and regularly met in my home for rehearsals, worship campfires, parties, talks about how the songs we sung were impactful, what scriptures and deeper meanings were there and how we all could be better leaders of the congregation.  We shared our real lives with each other and gathered as two or more to pray with expectation for God’s Kingdom to come in our lives.

 

About 2 years ago my husband and I began to experience some unease.  You know, when you feel like maybe you are being called to something new.  At first I would say prayers about God’s Kingdom coming in my life.  I was a native Oregonian who spent the last 24 years living in Los Angeles.  In the beginning I would always come home to LA with that huge sigh of relief as I flew over all the city and stepped off the plane at LAX to the palm trees, smell of jet fuel, crowds of multi-international people everywhere.  I’d get into the car, turn on one of my favorite of 8 great radio stations.  I would immediately get the sense of being where everything was happening, fully current, fully engaged and aware of what’s going on in the world.  It was the smell and sense of opportunity and the slipping into LA and out of Oregon.

 

Well, after so many years of that, it began to change.  Leaving Oregon became more difficult and coming back to LA began to feel less like home.   There grew a longing in my heart for the trees and the forests I grew up with; crisp air that fills you with energy and makes your eyes open up wide.  Along with all of that, I began to have the idea that I was free to live anywhere in the world.  I saw that everything I did could really be done anywhere.  Just because I had carved out a life in LA didn’t mean I had to stay there forever.  Every time I saw documentaries and movies of other places of God’s beautiful creation around the world I would long more and more to be free and as time went on, I came to the realization that I actually was free.

 

The tricky thing is, I had gone deep with God.  Church was not just a check box for me.  As a matter of fact, my life and ministry was actually all consuming and was always foremost in my mind.  I knew that God had a plan for my life and He was actively moving there.  The problem with this perspective and knowledge is that I felt like I couldn’t just do what I wanted to do.  I was afraid to step into some life or place that was not a part of God’s plan for our lives.

 

So I prayed “God, please make a way for us in Oregon.”  Now, I only prayed that prayer a few times because it actually scared me to say it out loud to God.  What if He did it?  Then we would have to pony up and leave all of that awesome stuff that I talked about in the beginning.  God had provided for us wonderfully, so walking away from that into something new was no easy task.

 

Well as it turns out, God made a way, so we made the leap.  The interesting thing now is to see how it is all playing out…

2 Comments

  1. 12-3-2012

    Lea, My friend…
    I miss you and Mark so much. My cup runneth over with love and joy for your entire family and the life you are making in Oregon. You and Mark have played a significant role in the growth of my faith. No matter where you both are, you are living God’s plan for your life. Your music is heaven sent and the vehicle for touching people with the love of God. You both are living examples of disciples of our heavenly father and I am so proud of you and am glad you are living out your dream. Even though I selfishly would rather have you back in LA. 🙂 Please kiss and hug each of your children especially for me. I truely miss their hugs and laughter. Kisses and long hugs to you and Mark. Love, Kristi

  2. 12-4-2012

    What a great post! Thank you for sharing it on your site.

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